just say yes

I’m running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won’t be ok and I won’t pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand

p/s: i love the new snow patrol album. bila mereka mahu dtg ke melbourne hah?

im leaving in 4 days, am not ready to say goodbye, yet :(

thanks all for the memories this summer, will always cherish it in my heart.

random

tired, busy , homesick and thousand of miles and 8 months away from home?
thats all i can say now.

nini,fiqa,hana,mira,nenek i miss you guys and all your craziness!

p/s: been watching friends season 4 for old time's sake and cant stop laughing!!
i wish i could have a boyfriend like chandler or joey because they are so damn funnnnyyy!!

joey: how are yaa doing?

hahahaha now back to work, 5 weeks before final presentation for design!

am back in melbourne yesterday.went to rmit this evening for design studio balloting.

my top 4 choices of design studio for this semester:
-Double Brick
-Architectural Knowledge
-RMIT Tiro Rise
-Back to School

hmmm i hope i can cope this semester.im probably taking conceptual photography for my elective.

p/s: its just 2 days but im already missing hometown! and of course talking talking and talking with friends back in sh alam!

take care.

i'm just not ready yet to say goodbye.

lumrah hidup.

Tepat lagi 2 minggu akan aku pulang ke melbourne semula.Tidak disangka, cuti kali ini cepat betul berlalu.

Banyak yang telah aku pelajari sepanjang cuti ini.Disebabkan duduk di rumah terlampau lama, membuatkan aku berfikir.Berfikir tentang kenapa perkara itu dan ini berlaku.Semua perkara yang berlaku ada sebab dah hikmah di sebaliknya.Tentang banyak perkara lah.

Cuti ini juga membuatkan aku berfikir dengan lebih matang.Aku harap perancangan aku untuk tahun ini akan menjadi.Amin, semoga Allah menyenangkan lagi kerja-kerjaku.

Bercakap tentang rakan.Cuti kali ini kerap sekali aku bertemu rakan-rakanku.Itu pon yang tak sibuk lah.Yang sibuk-sibuk tu, tak dapat lah gua membantu kan.Kadang-kadang, rindu juga untuk bertemu dengan yang lain-lain itu.Teman yang rapat tapi kerana masa tidak mengizinkan tidak dapat aku berjumpa.

Cuti ini juga aku menyedari sesuatu.
People change, to be a better person or worst.
Cuti ini aku banyak belajar dengan seorang rakanku ini.Sudah lama aku kenal dia, dekat 7 tahun kot.Mula-mula aku kenal dia, lain dengan orang yang aku kenal sekarang.
Dia telah berubah menjadi seorang yang sangat matang. Berubah tentang banyak perkara.
Berubah menjadi pemuda yang sangat matang pemikirannya.

Aku nak berubah juga.Ke arah yang lebih baik.Harap-harap aku akan mendapat petunjuk-Nya.Semasa aku di tahun pertama di melbourne, aku menerima didikan usrah yang agak serius.Aku menjadi sangat insaf ketika itu dan hampir berubah drastik. Tetapi kemudian aku berfikir semula.Aku mahu berubah tetapi dengan kehendakku sendiri.Bukan kerana terpengaruh dengan rakan-rakan.Aku tahu aku belum bersedia ketika itu.

Azamku bila pulang ke melbourne nanti ialah untuk menjadi insan yang lebih baik.Sebagai seorang pelajar, anak , rakan dan hamba-Nya.

Lagi satu seimbangkan hidupku.Tahun lepas, rakan serumahku sering berkata yang aku takde life.Asyik buat kerja aje. Biase lah, budak archi kan selalu busy aja.Tahun ini aku akan cuba untuk seimbangkan hidupku okay? Nanti pergi main squash aku ikut okay?

going places.

back from jakarta and bandung with family.
off to penang with intecians.

will be back in a few days.

experimenting

on my new camera.







abang is cutting haziq's messy hair.

i still have a lot to learn!

back!

im back! home in malaysia!

tidak menyesal saya cepatkan tiket.sungguh kelakar melihat reaksi wajah rakan-rakan apabila saya membuat kejutan untuk mereka.

fiqah mengambil masa untuk mendaftar muka saya , nini menangis sambil cakap celaka! , nenek dan mira tersasul-sasul sambil melahap makanan sedap dan hannah separuh tidur sambil mata sebelah sepet tak boleh buka.

hahaha.kelakar sungguh rakan-rakanku ini.rindu bangat sama mereka.

all thanks to lan! i owe you big time okay?

now, i have million things to do!

nun di seberang sana.

for the first time ever, letting go is not that hard anymore,i just realised.




im coming home very very soon !

nasi lemak bungkus daun pisang.

dari dulu saya memang suka makan nasi lemak bungkus daun pisang.summer tahun lepas, bila bangun pagi mesti dah ada dekat bawah di dapur rumah.mak ayah saya beli untuk saya kerana mereka tahu saya sangat idamkannya.heeeeee.dia tak sempat masak untuk saya kerana dia sangat sibuk orangnya,tidak mengapa, saya faham.

tak sabarnya nak makan lagi summer ni!
kawan-kawan di malaysia, jom pegi food hunting sedap2 bila saya balik malaysia nanti yeah?

p/s: mintak maaf.bila nak dekat final crit, makin banyaklah post-post gila.takot dan panic lah katakan.

gambar tu saya amik dari internet je.blog siapa-siapa tah.

life as it is.

on tuesday i didnt sleep at all to prepare for my final crit on my elective.on wednesday i just slept from 3pm - 8 pm then stay at uni the whole nite with zi yang until 6 am and go back and sleep until 10am.and last nite i slept from 2 am in the morning untill 2pm the next day.gila tak.mesti ganti the days before punya tido.haha.tido matiiiii.

oh well i cant beleive the semester is almost over. just had my UN charted kosovo elective final crit last wednesday.it went quite good actually.didn't expect for Brent Alpress to be the guest crit. when i came in to the class and saw him i was like "omg is he going to crit our presentation today? gulp gulp mati lah aku".but then after i presented, it was quite ok lah.his comments also not bad ape.then after each one of us finish presenting, he said it was quite a good class, especially it broaden your knowledge about urban architecture.he is very right indeed.before this i never knew about urban sprawl in each country.about how people populated each city. is it randomly sprawled , a garden city , a grid city like melbourne, a linear city? i wonder how the population in selangor sprawled actually.i can ask fatudin since he's taking town planning.what is left for this subject is to fix our presentation to be submitted for the folio next month.

and 2 weeks left for final crit for design! next week we have to present full mock up for final.like a real one.since i have only design to focus on, i'll give full attention to it.it seems like i have to stay in the comp lab at uni almost every nights with Zi Yang until the final.i hope he'll agree to do work at level 7 lab because it was so damn hot in level 8.i know he like it there because less people and u have 2 big monitor to do your 3d etc but still i cant concentrate with my 3d if im not comfortable myself.i hope we can finish all the drawings and 3d on time.oh well i think for this presentation also i need to spend a lot for the printing.since it is large scale studio, our building is quite huge.that's why its a pair work studio.last sem it costed me about aud200++ to print for the final because somebody canceled my printing at uni so i have to print outside at the shop.i guess the this sem will cost a lot too! oh my money is flying~~.

i've not been talking to him for like long time now.awww how i miss him and my friends back in malaysia.and of course my family too.ok just 12 more days before final crit then submit the folio then im free woohoo.cant wait to go to nz with sydney people.i really need a getaway from all of this.

p/s: i hope the bunga-bunga guy(as what zi yang said, haha/the hard core guy wont be our guest crit for the final presentation.he's very rough and scary man!

haa banyak plak update setelah sekian lama.haha selamat tinggal

i miss those free moments when you dont have to think about anything but just stare at the blank space far far far away.

i miss them, family and friends.

eid mubarak.

i guess this year its different.maybe this year he forgets.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri , maaf zahir batin to everyone i know.please forgive and forget if i ever done anything wrong to you okay?

i skip my elective class on pagi raya.still, very fortunate of me because my cousin got exam on first,second and third day of raya.its ok nadiah, 1 more raya to go! huhu.

on the day before raya itself, we had final crit for tech 3 (we as in me and partner and almost everybody lah!) and because we didn't sleep the whole night, i slept afterwards after the crit from 3pm to 9pm while all other people busy preparing for raya tomorrow.syera was out helping in malaysian hall while kak nini already celebrating in clayton , and i was sleeping alone in the house while everybody else started to bertakbir.

thats when i felt so homesick, sitting on the bed alone di malam raya.

and honestly for raya i only went to one open house and watch a movie with my housemates last night.couldnt go to others' because i was so busy in the comp lab doing design with my partner.oh well, i should feel gratitude that i still can celebrate.

5 more weeks to go! and 3 more months to go! i really really really miss them.everybody.

architects without frontiers.

apart from the busyness with projects and assignments, im in no mood to write anything.

oh i haven't mention about elective subject that im taking this semester, have i? nope i didn't take any language subject ; chinese,japanese,french .nope i didn't take any photography subject (its full tho).

instead..im taking UN Charted Kosovo.sounds very humanatarian ah? indeed it is..its all about urban architecture and about redesigning/redeveloping a new state in kosovo which in is Ferizaj.its something about designing by following the context of the site, but not only physical context but also social,political,economical context of the site.fyi, kosovo just gain their independence in february 2008 after a long ethnic conflicts between serbs and albanians.there were bloody wars and disputes between the 2 ethnics for quite a long time.



its what the woman last week mentioned when she gave a talk in our class,

"architects without frontiers"

she said not all people want to get involved in this thing.this is not all about working in big corporate company.this is about helping the less fortunate people out there.

by taking this subject, i've broaden my knowledge actually .now i know what nato is, what EU is, what is the current issues.seriously, before this i dont even care to find out what these organizations are for.

its quite a good class actually, we learn how to do diagrams a lot! how to visualise everything with minimal information but maximum means, graphically.

eh i tot im in no mood to write? haha just realize i write quite a lot.

p/s: happy 13th birthday nabil! jangan nakal2 ikut cakap mama ayah.haha

jejak kasih.

finally.

ahaaa actually im so lazy to update about my recent winter break.so just let cut it short.both of my brothers came down here first before joined by my mum and small lil bro.im still organizing the pics (there's alot, suprisingly), so these are some of the pics.

abg and haziq arrived in sydney and diorang taktau nak buat ape except for camwhoring around the city. This are one my fav pics.haha sukaaa ..i try to do the same thing tapi tak jadi bacause it was too dark on the night i went to sydney.

after a couple of days buang masa dekat sydney, they flew to melbourne to be reunited with me,jejak kasih hahaha.ok thats all, i'll put more pics later hahaha im so damn lazy.

oh btw, we already get the result for our studio ballot and i got a studio named Bodies, its a large scale studio btw.Its a night class(again!) but i think its okay for me because i dont have any class on friday this time.

will update later because im addicted to prison break now :)

winter! is here :)

winter holiday is here and i cant believe that im more busy than when im not on holidays.i mean very the busy.haha but at least im not stress.and i get more than enough of sleep.

right now my family is here to spend the winter break with me thats y laa im so busy and cant update anything.plus, there's no internet connnection in the apartment that they're staying at , so sad..and the distance from their apartment to mine is like 15mins walk.jauh gila malas nak jalan plus its very coldddd outside.

btw im enjoying every bits of my winter break.so far we've been to interesting places in the city and outside of melbourne.omg i've been to phillip island for 3 times! tp tak bosan2 pon.haha and we're going to mt buller tomorrow for ski-ing and snow boarding.fuhh very busy holiday ah?

btw will update later and put more pictures when the holiday is almost over..aaaahhh i dont want it to be over, but sadly soon it will :(

and and next week im going to sydney (again!) to visit Moon..well that is to make full use of my holiday haha.

oh happy belated birthday to syawa,sarah ain and amirnor! happy 21st to all of you and may God bless you :)

later.

I turn to you...

happy mother's day mama! actually i want to make a proper entry with all my mum's pics and write interesting things about her etc etc but thenn.....im so sorry i cant.i have a lot of drawings need to be done in so little times! (ini semua angkara neel&greg)hehe.so this is just a short post to wish u mum! u're the best mum in the whole wide world! (i know most people would say this but wth. i still think she's the best ).

there are loads of things i want to say about her.maybe some other time after i have finish all my submission i'll write an entry about her.

seriously i miss my mum :(

payung , brothers

i dont know is it me or the umbrellas? so far since i live in melbourne i have bought about 5 umbrellas in total. the first one i bought broken because of the strong wind.or is it becuse its cheap? the second one i left it in the tram secara tidak sengaja.and the funny thing was i tried to look for it but then asriah stopped me and said it was too late.the third is broken and so the 4th and 5th.Just now i bought another one and hope it will be okay.

going to watch ironman after this.lambat tak, semua org dah tgk baru nak tgk.hoho.

yeayy the whole family are coming this winter! both of my bros will come first and they will be arriving from sydney because haziq want to visit his friend in sydney first.then after that mama,ayah and nabil are coming to join us! most probably i'll go somewhere if i've finish my submission earlier, probably go to sydney again and meet them there!

awwww how i miss my silly brothers and all their stupid jokes.being the only girl in the family is not bad afterall :)

design crit? oh noi...

gosh, my real mid semester crit for design is actually this coming monday.not the one i already had before.that one was just some guest crits coming to crit our projects.like what greg said "this is the serious one, there will be 4 guest crits coming to critique your project". Haha sounds scary for me.oh i have to prepare a lot for the crit and i hope it will turn out okay.

in the meantime, we have to at least start build our physical model for comm subject.The 3d models should be almost finished by next week with all the renders and views.gila apa.in one week? well, nothing is impossible.i have to learn to manage my time properly.thats what im lacking in.

im thinking to go back to malaysia this year for summer hols a lil bit late.thinking of working here for 1 month.i need the moneyyyy.i heard its really rewarding.hehe really need a new camera.my current one kuno gila okay, especially for archi student.

oh i really miss the good old times with my friends.most of them are having finals now.some are in their final year.So goodluck guys! i know u guys can do it :)

hmmm about a week ago i had a really weird conversation with someone.more weird conversations.hmmm if only i have all the clues.cant you just tell me what you were thinking straight to me? buat confuse je mcm ni.haish...

im missing my family too rite now.with all the crazee bros, the blur mum, the scarry father! haha.haih..goodluck to haziq i think he's going to take his IELTS test.ke dah lepas? wtv, gudluck okay.

will update later when im free.cheers!

sorry kpd rakan-rakan yg men-tag saya, im so busy to do it! will do it later when im free :)

when everything is not right.

what's wrong with opinioted people?

there is nothing wrong with them if the opinions that they give are reasonable and logic isn't it?
sometimes we have to stop arguing for what we know ourself its not right.think again.are you fighting just for the sake of winning(and also maybe hurting other people's feelings) or you're fighting because you know you are right?

im not going to argue with things that i think its not worth.but i have limits you know. there are times when im in bad temper.dont try me or u'll regret later.your attitude doesnt suit your age at all.you think you know everything and you are right all the time? from simple things to complicated ones u'll not stop arguing.think again.you're mature enough to anylize what u did.
(this is nothing to do with the recent election)

please note that the person im talking about is not my closed friends, my groupmate , my unimate, my course mate.it is someone out there.so anyone, jgn perasan im talking about you okay? :)

lets talk about other things.
i miss my family and friends back in malaysia so much.i miss hanging out with them all the time during the summer break.i miss teasing all my brothers and being teased by them too.i miss the times when im in deep conversation with my friends.i miss talking with my mum.i miss my mum so much.i miss all the food in malaysia.all the spicy food.i miss eating ice cream with *cough cough* and just simply talk with *cough cough*.i miss everything basically ;0

my design studio did not went well last monday.the tutors said there were no improvements in our design progress and our mid sem critique is next monday.how scary is that? a lot of work need to be done and i know we can do it(hope so aminnnn).chaiyok!

current mood: stress , dissapointed , homesick